I waited, and waited, and waited. The activities of our family seemed to be taking over time that I felt I desperately needed with my husband. Just time for us. As we lived through our busy days, I just longed to spend some time with Juan. We didn't necessarily have to go on a vacation, I just wanted some precious time - time without distraction. This just seemed to be scarce in our worlds. Like many of you, our days are filled with work, chores, activities, more chores, more work, etc. Yes, we might sit on the couch together for a few minutes, but that was what it was - a few minutes. I couldn't remember the last time we relaxed with each other and laughed like we used to. I kept waiting for that moment. The more I waited, the more discouraged I became that our time would never arrive.
I am sure that many, if not all, have felt that desperate waiting. Maybe we are waiting for news in our lives; maybe we are waiting for a family member to reach out; maybe we are waiting for a new job; maybe we are waiting for our children's events to take place. The waiting game, as I've written in previous blogs, can be a difficult place for us to hang our hats.
To fill the gap of waiting, many times we try and put our OWN agenda in there. Been there - done THAT! Usually, that is never very successful. Sometimes as we wait, we fall into despair, that what we are waiting for will NEVER happen. That can be a very ugly place. Sometimes as we wait, we lament heavily, and bring those around us down with us. Can't imagine I'm very fun to be around during THOSE times. As we wait, though, we don't typically focus on the joy that may be right in our sight.
I'm sure you are all saying - JOY? Really Susan, can there be actual JOY when we are waiting. I think there can be, and I think we often overlook that opportunity to see the joy in the midst of the wait. Where can the joy be hiding? Many times, it's not really hiding - it can be staring us right in the face. As you wait for news, we could be pouring into prayer and understanding that our God is always with us as we wait. As we wait for family members, we can do our own reaching out to others who may need US versus US needing someone else. As we wait for the new job, maybe we can search other passions and hobbies that can help us in our search. As we wait for our children to move through life itself, maybe we can take time to remember the joy of memories passed and look to new memories we can make ahead. Yes, there can be joy in the waiting.
Where the wonder of it all comes into play is that God has the plan. There is a reason why what we want NOW is not coming. He has that wonderful master plan that only HE knows. Yes, don't we all long to know what that plan is? How much fun would THAT be? We wouldn't take the time during the wait to grow closer to our Lord - and isn't that what He wants the most - to be close to Him? We have opportunities during the next wait to focus not on the despair, but the joy. All the learnings and growth that happen during those times. We will never understand God's plan - but we do have the hope in His perfect love. Now that's a gift worth waiting for.
So, what happened on that long wait with my husband? Last weekend, Juan suggested we take a drive to Cape Cod - about 2 hours away. What, time for us? I jumped at the request and before I knew it, we were off for a day of US. I can't even begin to share the joy I felt that day. Some moments were filled with wonderful discussions. Other moments were silent. The best part was that we were just "us". The dust may have been a little higher on the coffee table. The laundry may not have gotten done until Sunday versus Saturday. It didn't matter. The time was right! During our time together, we talked about our waiting period - and realized that there was joy during that time. Joy in seeing our family make decisions. Joy in knowing we might have helped out someone who needed it. Joy in doing God's will at that time so we could enjoy His will for our time. What did that take? Just a little simple faith! May you have the faith to have joy during your waiting time.
"Heavenly Lord, so often we wait for things, situations, or people in our lives. The wait can put us into a very desperate place. The wait can make us so impatient that we put OUR agenda into the wait versus taking the time to wait for YOUR agenda. Please help us to be patient in the wait, and during that time, find the joy that you want us to! Bless us to have the simple faith you provided to us. In your name, AMEN!"